HOLY CRAP

a wholllllllllllllllle month without updating??! what the hell's wrong with me?

LIFE. that's what. if i thought november/december where my most hectic months, then i must've been crazy. may and june are gonna be the worst of my life.

so this month i have to turn in a senior reflections video and a music video. the reflection video, according to Mcginness, is going to set the standard for videos till the end of time. she said this is history in the making and that i was gonna be part of the most important tradition foothill's ever had.........

i have 30 seconds of 10 minutes done.
no pressure or anything.

then the music video, which i have yet to shoot or even brainstorm, is due on monday. i'm not even sure if my actors ( the ones who i have yet to choose) will be able to make it. needless to say, i can't think of, shoot, and edit a music video all on sunday. SHAT.

then, the english essay/presentation.
casey is going to be gone for two weeks in england (lucky toad.......biotch) which doesn't hurt us, but could honestly be used as time to work on our freaking analyzation and presentation which is ten minutes long. i'm gonna work on it myself but it'd obviously be better if she were there to help me.

and of course, save the worst for last.

S.A.T.

the motherfucker of all tests. the big momma. "one test to rule them all, one test to find them...."

haha ok it's not that ginormous, but still, it's pretty much going to decide if i go to college or not. which will decide if i ever get a job, which will then decide if ever get noticed enough to get married and have kids. pretty much, if i blow this thing, i will never be successful, get married, or have a happy life. holy shit, my happiness depends on this freaking test. again,

NO PRESSURE. (psh give........ me........ A BREAK)
i don't even know how to start studying for this week. i have sworn to study at least one hour each night.......opening my book might be a good start.

well looking at the bright side of things, it was my birthday last week. yup. i have been on this planet for 17 years. HOLY CRAP. honestly, i didn't want it to be my birthday. i feel so old, which sounds ridiculous but hey. now i understand what adults go through when they reach their midlife crisis. it's like, i don't know, you feel like you're just slowly decomposing hahaha. i mean, this is my last year as a child. Next year i'll be an "adult". it seems so surreal. if it were up to me, i would've stayed 16 for the rest of my life. that's like the perfect age. but i don't know. the whole subject just depresses me. alas, i will stop talking! :)

some equally good news, i will be gone for the ENTIRE month of July. HOORAH HOORAH!! i seriously can't wait to get away from all this california melodramatic shit. i just wanna go to costa where every day is like a freaking vacation and i'm with my cousins who are the best in the world and treat me like a baby, which i am in the group. but yeah, you have no idea (whoever you are) how badly i need to just get away and forget this place ever existed. even if it is for just a month.

going back to the bad news, my opinion of someone has been thrown in the fucking trash can. FUCK THAT. i was stupid for even trying. and also, this may sound really gross to some, but i have chorro. if you know what that means, then.....
GOOD FOR YOU!!!

Song of the day: Dig- Incubus

Until next time,
Sary