New Year's Eve Prayer

you, my love, are allowed to forget about the christmas you just spent stressed out in your parents' house
you, my love are allowed to shed the weight of all the years before like bad disco clothes, save them for a night of dancing stoned with your lover
you, my love are allowed to let yourself drown every night in bottomless, wild, and naked symbolic dreams
you, my love, in sleep can unlock your youth and your most terrifying magic, and dreams for the courageous
you, my love, are allowed to grab my guitar and sing me idiot love songs if you've lost your ability to speak....keep it down to two minutes
you, my love, are allowed to rot, and to die, and to live again, more alive and incadescently than before
you, my love, are allowed to beat the shit out of your television, choke its thoughts and corrupt its mind, kill, kill, kill, KILL the motherfucker before the song of zombified pain and panic and malaise and its narrow right winged vision and its cheap commercial gang rape becomes the white noise of the world, turnabout is fairplay
you, my love, are allowed to forgive and love your television
you, my love, are allowed to speak in kisses to those around you and those up in heaven
you, my love, are allowed to show your babies how to dance, full bodied, starry eyed, audacious, supernatural and glorified
you, my love, are allowed to suck in every single endeavor
you, my love, are allowed to be soaked, like a lover's blanket in the New York summertime with the wonder of your own special gift
you, my love, are allowed to receive praise
you, my love, are allowed to have time
you, my love, are allowed to understand
you, my love, are allowed to love
women disobey when little men believe
you, my love, are rebellion

-JB

06 was a good year. I'm not making a New Year's resolution because I never seem to keep them. So starting tomorrow, I plan to live without any hopes, expectations, or goals set in mind, and rather, live each day as it comes. I think that is the secret to success. Here's to a great past year, and a kick-ass 07.

Until next year,

Sary

question

why are people so unbelievably retarded?
and why did our big bear trip just get delayed a day?

you tell me.

best xmas in a long time

just can't stop looking at it.


MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE

Until next time
Sary

umm pretty much..... the best day ever

so you see those three kids up there? i love them more than anything in the world. gosh, today was seriously on my top 3 best days of my life. i loved all my gifts, especially some cool little tickets for a concert. i really feel like a long, descriptive entry tonight so here goes:

my ipod woke me up at 6, but i ignored it and went back to sleep. by the time i woke up again, it had played 60 something songs? haha. so i got my butt out of bed and prepared myself for the long day ahead of me.

i took a shower, got out, at which point i started talking to miss peairs who told me she was picking me up in 15 minutes for some last minute shopping! so i threw on a shirt, put my hair in a bun, got the presents ready and left. our ride to the mall was pretty interesting, as they always are. allie and i always find a way to laugh hysterically about something. or nothing at all actually.

anyways, we got to mainplace which was PACKED. i got a cd for her parents and she got some candy for her aunt, uncle, and cousin. i got some bertie botts beans from the candy place....omg... some of them tasted really good, but i was a dumbass and tried the gross ones. like booger...JESUS. it was disgusting. but the one that really got to me was earwax. i seriously felt like throwing up....guuuhh....

i still had to get casey another present so we rushed to tower but they were freaking closed! on our way back to allie's we ran into casey's mom on the road. that was funny.....haha. when we got to allie's house, she wrapped presents like no other and we left for chris's.

i was so excited when we got there, i could barely contain myself. i'll tell you what each person got me:
allie- superman dvd's
casey-DLD tickets and some comfy shoe thingy's
chris- guitar strap!
lauren- pj's

and i got:
allie- a wallet, socks, and a shirt
casey- a cardi......which she already had.......(on, i might add)
chris-a shirt and snow cap
lauren- pj's and socks

and then, there was the whole coincidence thing with casey. haha so not only did we both go to target last night, but the socks that she got for allie, i got them for myself in blue. and then IIII got allie those same socks in pink. and i almost got casey this really cool shirt, but i could've sworn that i had seen it on her before, so i got her the cardi instead and it kinda backfired cause she already had it in gray..... wow. we know each other too well case....too well.

oh, and i also got sex, violence, and chaos a framed picture of us. seriously....best pic of all time. hands down.

so time flies when you're having fun. before i knew it, lauren and allie were off to the lights and it was just me, casey, and chris. we took casey to starbucks and peets to get presents for her mom and then we dropped her off. me and chris spent the whole day together after that.

we hit up james who was at jill's so we drove there and hung out for a while, watched the office, you know. we were all starving so me, chris, james, bobby, and i went to in&out. i was so full after. we were all kinda bored there so we went to best buy to see if they had guitar hero but no luck. instead we played tony hawk on xbox 360 for a while. we tried circuit city too but they didn't have guitar hero either. we all played PS3 for the first time there....HOLY CRAP. haha it's funny how easily someone can be brainwashed. like.... I WANT IT NOOWWW. the graphics are so much better than xbox. it look so real!!

anywho, we went back to jill's and i kicked everyone's butt at pool hehe. jill had a dance party in the game room with her flashlight it was pretty awesome. oh, and we watched the sound of music haha sweeet. then hannah came over, we hung for awhile then me and chris had to go. and so now here i am, freezing my butt off yet again.

honestly, words cannot express how much fun i had today, and how much i love all my friends. heck i love everyone!! the guy who's in the car that just drove by my house? i love him too. haha. it's so great to be genuinely happy. i really hope that someone can be as lucky to have friends even half as cool as mine.

i love you guys with all my heart.

Song of the day: Warning Sign- Coldplay

p.s. I GOT MY PERMIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Until next time,
Sary

BREAK BREAK BREAK!!!

HAHA i love that.

goddd it's finally here!!! i am sooo excited. these next few weeks are gonna be guh-rate. haha. here's what im doing:

• getting my permit!
  
• christmas shopping for the three amigos


• exchanging gifts


• eating tamales


• XMAAASSS!!!!


• BIG FREAKING BEAR!!


• shooting Garden State scenes


• New Years!!


• film festival
  

gosh this is going to be the best christmas break ever. Im going in a few hours to get the friends the first part of their gifts. i think they'll like them. and yes, they're all the same. .....WO....a draft just came into my room and it's only like in one spot.... IT'S A GHOST!! haha of christmas past!! wow that was weird.

anyways christmas eve is gonna be awesome. i'll be eating tamales and chris, casey, and allie are coming over for some. this is the one night of the year i get to eat them. then no more till next christmas haha. they'd better be good. So i am COMPLETELY stressing out about christmas shopping. i have no idea what i'm getting my friends. i've been looking online and i have SOOMMEEEWHHATT an idea of what to get them.

so is it just me or has it been like, 635 degrees below zero lately? It's so damn cold!!! gosh i really need some winter clothes. i have a feeling i won't be getting the guitar till after christmas...=( i'm sad. and mad at the same time. My parents haven't even looked at the one i want yet. and they keep stalling and ignoring me JUST LIKE THEY DID WITH MY PERMIT. i really hate that. it's like on my top list of things i hate.

but anyways.....i'm excited needless to say. and even more excited to film my garden state scenes. they're gonna kick B-U-T-T. if you're reading this, whoever you are, wish me luck on my permit test tomorrow haha.

Song of the day: Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas- Coldplay

Until next time
Sary

me voy a morir

I realized that yesterday and today, if i'm feeling happy about something, that quickly goes away. Because then i remember about my video feature and how im no where close to being done. Which means i'm getting an F tomorrow and my grades going down. Jesus, video really is my most stressful class.

anywho, i have yet to go christmas shopping. i have no idea what i'm getting my friends. i wanna get all of them something reallllyyyy cooool. i hope i do. i've decided to try and write in my blogger everyday. Like, just set aside 10 or 15 minutes so i can keep this thing consistent.

not much else is new. oh! except i decorated the christmas tree last night! we finally got a live one after four years of having a stupid artificial tree. can't wait to see the presents pile up soon. i have to leave in a few minutes to go film at school. i might look forward to it a little more if a certain someone wasn't going whom i just HAPPEN to loathe.

Song of the day: Redemption Song- Johnny Cash

GOSH AND CASEY IS SO FRUSTRATING RIGHT NOW!!! MY PRESENT HAD BETTER BE GOOD YOU LITTLE TOAD =D

Until next time
Sary

Excusez-moi

Gosh, i've been neglecting my blogger. I swore i wouldn't do that when i first started but alas, it has happened. Part of it is too much school work/ laziness. I'm sorry. I say that as if anyone actually reads my blogger. hahah. anyways, i'll fill you in on what's happened.

Last night, i saw here and now. WOW. hhaha that's all i can say. i walked out of the theater and i felt...weird.... haha. I felt like i did drugs, and i had a son who sold them, and i was a teacher, and i was a suicidal outcast, and a superior intellectual hispanic ( which let's face it i am) and a whole bunch of other stuff. Casey was great. I was so proud of her!!! She did an awesome job. I think michael was by far the best actor in the whole play. He and Jackie. Yeah. But, Michael was amazing. Definitely oscar worthy. haha.

So what else.... apart from the fact that school has been....devouring my soul, everything else is pretty good. Oh christmas.....christmas, christmas, christmas....IT'S HERE!!! i love this time of year. This is seriously when i am the happiest in life. I just realized that for the most part i am genuinely happy in my life right now. And i don't feel that way very often. I don't know, I can't explain it. I just feel happy. I think seeing the play last night has a big part to do with that.

Anywho, the chaos of christmas and winter shopping has arrived. Time to go buy winter clothes and christmas presents for everyone!!!! aaah! This is gonna be interesting. God i'm freaking cold right now. So yeah, i think that's it for today. Now, I must go spoon with my dog.

Song of the day: All flowers in time- Jeff Buckley and Elizabeth Fraser

Until next time
Sary

to make it short...

you know, i've really got to do something about my fucking computer. it always freezes!!! and it just so happens to do it when i'm writing an entry, so then everything gets erased. GAAAH. so i had already written how great my weekend was, and i'm sure as hell not gonna write it all again. so i'll make it quick for you. This is how my weekend went:

• Great Thanksgiving


• Went shopping for 935879 hours


• Peed my pants at American Eagle


• Saw Happy Feet


• Went to my aunt's bday party


• Saw an ex-boyfriend XP

No idea what I'm doing today. I'm open to ideas and suggestions. Hopefully next weekend will be just as great.

Until next time,

Sary

AY-g

So today was fun. Allie, Chris, Lauren P. and I went to Huntington!! I really love going there to shop. Although, some of the shops are weird ( american apparel) haha. But it's great. Totally chill. Afterwards we had a rather interesting car ride home and I stayed at Allie's for like ten minutes before my parents picked me up.

Then I went to my uncle's house for two hours and watched the discovery channel!! WOO! I felt sorry for the penguins who got eaten by the leopard seal =(

Yep yep. Not much to write about. Except for the fact that my analysis for my english project SUCKED. God, it was like, waaaay up there on my top most embarrasing moments. You know when you watch something that's really embarrasing, even to watch, on T.V. and you cringe in your seat? And then you change the channel because it's so painful to watch?

Let's just say if my presentation were a T.V. show, 6 million viewers would have been changing the channel. I get embarrased even thinking about it. But you, there's no point in dwelling on it. What's done is done. My group SUCKED BUTT. Life goes on.

AAAANNND. It's Thanksgiving tomorrow. A.K.A. one of my favorite holidays. This really should be a great Thanksgiving. That's what I'm hoping for. And I might see Sheev's tomorrow! Yep, this weekend is a looooong deserved holiday break from school. I'll report back after the mayhem of Black Friday has died down.

Song of the day: 1979- Smashing Pumpkins

Until next time,
Sary

LIFE IS HECTIC

i haven't posted in more than a week. that's the longest i've gone! so much has happened in the last week, and it's more than i care to write. but don't worry, nothing life-threatening. Let's just say that it was a week full of " HILARIOUS, GREAT MOOD" moments and " MISERABLE, NERVOUS-BREAKDOWN" moments. kinda got the two extremes.

So i'll forget about last week and start writing about events from this moment on. ugh, stupid driving class today. i hate it. but it's definitely worth it. and hopefully i'll get to see Happy Feet with the gang tonight!! .....wow....did i just say " the gang" ? haha. umm que mas?

oh!! my aunt is staying with us for two weeks! i'm so excited! i've gotta take her shopping to all the cool places. umm...yeah. not sure what else to write. i actually didn't feel like writing tonight. only reason i'm doing it is to get you, and myself, caught up. idk, just feel like i had to get it out there.

Song of the day: " So Long, So Long" - Dashboard Confessional

Tomorrow is going to be HELL.
HELL.


HELL!!!!

Until next time,
Sary

What?

This morning i started an entry. But my computer froze halfway through. And I got mad because I didn't get to save it.

Right now my current mood is: pathetic. as in sad and feeling sorry for myself and sad BECAUSE i feel sorry for myself. My hormones have been ridiculous lately and today they got out of control.

It's funny how much someone's feelings can change instantly. This morning I was up and cheerful and happy, and now I'm completely the opposite. So I no longer have the will to write about the fun things that happened this past week ( all of which i had written down this morning, but got erased)

I mean....GOD.....i just....i don't know, it's one of those days. one of those fucking days haha. But it's all good. tomorrow will be a better day.

" plus, i look forward to a good cry......it feels pretty good." - SAM

Until next time
Sary

Jim Johnson

So my weekend has been pretty good so far, which doesn't happen often. Currently I'm at my uncle's house. Everyone's watching the big fight on paper-view and the guy I was rooting for is losing. So I figured what the hell?! I'm gonna update my blogger. So just to fill you in....

Yesterday was minimum day!!! Lauren K, Chris, Allie, and I went to Chipotle's after school. It was my cherry popping experience.......let's just say it was great. hahaha. Seriously though, their burritos are " the size of a newborn baby" as Allie likes to say. And they're reallllyyyy yummy. After that we went to Allie's ( Chris beat us to it again!) and Lo took some pictures for us!! Well, " some" is an understatement. We took atleast 50. And they all look really good.

I gotta say, Lauren is a really good photographer. She knows how to capture my features in just the right way.....PAHA. But yeah. We got some really great group pics. The only problem was Casey was missing again! I'm sure we'll get full group pics sometime soon.

After striking various poses, Allie took me to the ortho (blech) and we went to the waterpolo game after. Allie and Lauren watched, but I had to film for video. My arm is soooo sore from carrying that stupid camera. The game was intense!! We lost 6-7 but it was freaking close. But anywho, guys in speedos are always nice to watch, whether they win or not =)

Theeeen, we rented Run Lola Run! I suggested it. Because I'm cool like that. And indie. haha. Well yeah, it's a trippy German film which I recommend to you all. After pigging out on Ben&Jerry's Lauren Pyle came over and we spent the night at Allie's.

FYI, I think this entry is getting kinda monotonous. I keep saying " and then" and "after". I'm sorry, there's just a lot of stuff that happened!! so bare with me.

THE NEXT MORNING, (today) we went to the Alzheimer's walk!!! It was awesome. Really great workout and consience-lifter-upper. I got to wear a tag that said in memory of Jim Johnson. No idea who it was, but I'm glad I got to walk for him. Apparently, you CAN die from Alzheimer's. Go figure!!

So yeah. This entire afternoon I just flopped around and took a much needed nap. And now I'm here!! At my uncle's house!......SHIT AND THE ARGENTINIAN GUY I WAS ROOTING FOR JUST FREAKING LOST!! dammit. hahahaha. My uncle's are going crazy right now! They're yelling at the television. haha i love it. I love my family so much. It's like the one in my big fat greek wedding, COSTA RICAN VERSION. wahaha.

So that pretty much sums it up folks. I'm supposed to go the movies tomorrow with Caseface, so if I have time i'll blog it up some more.

Until next time
Sary

There's a wild animal in there!

So is it just me, or is it FREAKING COLD??!!

yeah i thought so. anywho, some pretty interesting things to write about tonight. Let's see:

Allie came over on halloween and we watched interview with a vampire!!! It's about my 5th time seeing it. I think it's ridiculous how no matter how much Tom Cruise is decaying as a vampire, he's still hot. Jeeze. So that night was pretty tight.

Then yesterday, nothing tooo exciting but i did have a really fun lunch. So it was exciting for me! I have figured out that the mood i'm in revolves around lunch time. If i'm having a crappy morning and then a really fun lunch, then my day gets better. If lunch sucks, then I'm in a pissy mood for the rest of the day. And things are getting better as far as friends go so that's GREAT. I can cross that out on things that are bugging me. =)

AND TODAY. HO MAN.... haha. well today we had video announcements, which in my opinion sucked. they showed THREE clips of a WASC feature that i spent like, 2 freaking weeks working on. hopefully the next one will be better. Bennett completely freaked out on us today and we spent most of the period gossipping about other classes. I really do like that class, regardless of how bizarre it is.

and what's REALLY exciting....i think i found someone to jam with!!! haha. I was talking to michael today and he said that he has a ska band type thing going on and they need a drummer! Not my first choice of an instrument, but hey it's better than nothing. I really hope i'll be able to do something with that. He said it's like 8 guys and about four of them have trombones, trumpets, etc. hahah. im stoked.

Then lunch was very peculiar. Byron put a dog suit in his locker and realized he had to get a book out. When he went to open it again the stupid locker was jammed shut. hahah. i swear, everyone tried to open it but it was no use. There was hair sticking out of it too which looked like a sasquatch was in there or something haha. Then the guys started kicking it REALLY hard and valez came over....OH VALEZ. satan reincarnated. He's such a dick!!! i hate him!!! as casey and i like to say...

" Valeth ith a hawd-ass when you lie to him....aaand when you kick da lockerth...." hahah. i got the E.J. impression DOOOWWWNNN. hahaha. so overall, the past few days have been good, which is awesome. and smallville's on tonight. and i'm having spaghetti for dinner. sweet..... baby

Until nex time
Sary

MUA HA HA

so happy halloween kids! gosh today the weirdest thing happened. i woke up and i was like, oh, i'll wear my orange shirt. but then i was like well, it's gonna be cold so i'll just wear my black shirt over it. and i when i walked out the door i realized i was wearing orange and black! and it's halloween..... i don't know I thought it was weird haha.

It's not even nightime yet and i'm already sick on candy. well, mostly chocolate. tonight i was gonna do something with lauren. but if not i'll just watch the sixth sense on abc family just because there's nothing else to watch. i really don't like halloween. for one, i HATE scary things and secondly, too much candy is disgusting.

we watched the disney version of sleepy hollow today. WOW. that thing scared the hell out of me when i was little, and it still does. especially the part where the frogs go...... " HEADLESS HORSEMAN.....HEADLESS HORSEMAN..." guuuhhhh. cuh-reepy.

anyways today pretty much sucked ass. maybe it's because it's halloween or something....i really have no idea.

until next time

Sary

DST Rocks

It's only six o'clock!!! what the heck?

this is awesome. now i don't feel as if my whole day has passed me by.

So today i did absolutely nothing. i was supposed to go to dave&buster's but it didn't work out. rightn ow i'm watching DOMINO. it's a pretty cool movie. kiera knightley rocks.

the only reason why i'm writing an entry tonight is because im bored as hell. trust me there's nothing exciting to write about.

except now, after watching domino i wanna be a bounty hunter!!! REALLY BAD. I'M NOT EVEN KIDDING!!

go rent it! i think it sucks how my entries keep getting shorter and shorter....

Until next time

Sary

Oh Lordy....

So I got back from Jill's partylast night around 11 ish. IT WAS AWESOME!!. They played really good music and I just danced around like crazy. And then, Ms. Lauren Pyle came!! so that was fun. Overall, the night was great minus a few, dramatic mishaps towards the end =/.

So today, I think I will hang out with Ms. Lauren Klein and Ms. Shiva!! haha. Screw the costume party. I guess superwoman will have to wait till next year. So yes, today should be fun as well.

So on Thursday, about 4 hours after I wrote my entry, I took Andrew outside to pee. When he came back inside, for some odd reason, he was limping!! And I was like aahhh!!! so my parents freaked out and we took him to the emergency room. Luckily he had a very very very slight torn ligament. so now he's on meds and we have to keep him confined in the bathroom!! my poor dog. Like..... him getting hurt yesterday scared me so much, and I realized how much I love my Andrew. When he dies, I don't know what I'm gonna do. I'll probably be in a depression for like a year......GOD, i don't even wanna think about it.

Onto a lighter subject, I went shopping yesterday for the party today with Guiselle!! ( the ex mother-in-law) haha. She's like my second mom. I think it's funny how I'm still really good friends with my ex-boyfriends mom. HUH. Anywho, I FINALLY got a new pair of jeans. In fact I got two!! They're great.......like you care.

So if you're looking for a good, slow, romantic, going-to-sleep, song, download COLORS BY AMOS LEE. It's amazing. It makes me wanna cry. And anything by Jeff Buckley, I recommend =)

Before I finish this entry, there is something I must say that has been bugging me for a looong time. I don't know if I'll get shit for this but, watev. I need to get it out. I love my three amigos more than anything in the world. MORE THAN ANYTHING. I don't think they know how much I care about them, even though at times I can be tooo jokingly harsh, or just plain mean, and I realize that. Recently, there have been a lot of problems, just like inside the group. Too much drama, misunderstandings, or just plain stupidity. I hear something from one person, something from another, and I don't know who to believe, whose side to take, or if I should just completely disregard it. Sometimes I find myself being pissed off and bitchy because of it, and I hate that.The point is, I feel like there is the huge rift, and at times I'm like.....what the hell happened to this group? Why can't it go back to the way it used to be? The fact that I get mad at people, they get mad at me, they get mad at eachother is just wierd and scary at the same time. My biggest fear is that one day, we'll dig a hole so deep, we won't be able to get out of it and we won't be friends anymore.

So what I'm basically trying to say is, I hope everything can get resolved. I really do.

I love you guys.

Until next time
Sary

My dog has fleas...

I spent like twenty minutes trying to get them off by hand (it's gross I know) and I killed like 20 of them!!! So that's like a flea a minute, which is pretty good. Anyway, I know have various annoying bug bites all over my arms and ankles. yuck.

So. Today. What happened today? Nothing toooo exciting I suppose. Apart from my english teacher flipping out on us, today was a pretty normal day. And I'd like to take this moment to tell everyone how much I love auto. It's pretty much the best class ever. And I'm the only girl so I get special priveledges! And the guys are great....tuh-huh. But seriously, fixing cars is thebomb.com.

Oh! and today at lunch was superfun. Casey told us about her little bathroom incident which was hilarious. And she made another quite hilarious comment when she described ( and acted out) how she could fit into Mrs. Larson's boobs.....and curl up into them like a cacoon. HAHAH. schweet. i loooove it.

So I have decided today that I HATE having a sixth period. i hate it. HATE IT. Mostly because the other three amigos go out to eat sometimes and I feel left out =( And you know, everyone's life would be so much easier if I got out after 5th. Goddddd.

On to more interesting things, this weekend should be very fun-filled indeed! Party tommorow and maaaybe Saturday. Lauren invited me to hang out with her and Shiva, which sounds like a lot of fun, but dressing up like Superwoman sounds like a lot of fun too. hahaha. I wanna dress up reaalllllyyy bad. I don't know, maybe I'll do both.We'll see.

Tonight I'm going shopping for Jill's party tomorrow, seeing as how I have nothing to wear. I AM SO EXCITED. It's gonna be like another homecoming! And apparently the rocking horse ridge club is SICK. I hope all four of us can go. That would be great. Anywho, I have about 100 bucks saved up for driving school. I need another hundred and my mom's gonna pay for the rest, THANK GOD. jeeze. This is so ridiculous. I get pissed off when anyone brings up driving school, because it's so retarded how I'm 16 and don't even have my permit yet.

So overall, today was a good day. AAANNNNDD smallville's on tonight!! yesssss. hope this one's good. oh oh!!! and i get asian chicken salad for dinner tonight! score. See, it's little things like this that make me happy. And that's all that should matter kids- the little things in life.

Until next time,
Sary

The Saga Begins.... (psh)....

So after years of making fun of people who have blogs, I gave in and finally made a journal slash blog slash whatever you wanna call it. I made a livejournal a few days ago, but screw that! Blogger is way better. Plus it's way easier to manage. Yeah, I said it Casey. Ha.

Soooo why have I decided to make this......I don't really know. Mostly because it seems like something fun to do. But then again, I SUCK at keeping journals/ blogs. I always make like 3 or 4 and never write again. I'm sort of inclining towards the fact that A LOT has been going lately at school, home, etc. and I haven't really told anyone about it. So I'm thinking that if I bottle all of this up it might get dangerous around here. haha. Yeah, I think that's it.

Cool. So. What to say, what to say. Since this is my first entry, I'll save the intense drama for another time. Right now, I'll tell you about my life an hour ago. Have you ever gotten really cold and taken a hot shower? Like a steaming hot shower? IT'S GREAT. hahaha. I think that's up there on my top ten best feelings in the world. I swear I almost fell asleep in there. That was, after I almost fell. It was ridiculous. I was embarrased. Even though there was no one to be embarrassed in front of. How embarrassing is that? I stepped on my little sister's stupid shampoo bottle and had to grab the curtains to not fall back. LAME.

Oh! okay. so one of those " things" that I've been bottling up and haven't really told anyone about. I wanna like start a band or something. Not even. I mean, maybe, but like mostly find people who play any instrument and just jam you know? And I've been getting so much into music lately. Like IMMENSELY. I can't even explain it....ok let me try: ( don't care how lame this sounds)

I discovered Jeff Buckley about 1 or 2 years ago, but really started listening to him just recently. In case you didn't know, he was, in my opinion, one of the greatest musicians that ever lived. Listening to him, I realized what it really means to make music. Making music is stripping your ego down when you are expressing yourself, collaborating on a moment that has an energy about it that is inspirational and surreal. I mean, when I sit down with my guitar, I get into this mode where everything else goes quiet and it's just me strumming the chords, and I know how ridiculous it sounds but it's true. I just feel right. That's all there is to it. And it makes me feel good.

If I pick up my guitar when I'm feeling depressed, I feel better, period. And that's where great music comes from- whenever you're emotional. If you ever try to write a song when you're not, then it won't work. That's what I find so laudable and majestic about music. And that's what I learned from Mr. Jeff. And you're thinking " what the hell is she on" right now. And that's okay. Because I'm a dork. Who LOVES music. But Jesus, I made this blog and there's bound to be embarrassing stuff on here, so i might as well just get it out of the way.

Wow. Ok. so.... " talk about music" .....check. I actually feel somewhat better about it. So yeah, if you're looking to jam it out, hit me up. haha. Well i think that's all for tonight folks. I told myself I'd stop at 9:30 and alas, the time has come. So, I don't know how often I'll write in this thing. But I WILL write in it whenever I feel I gotta get something out. Granted. I really like this thing.

Until next time