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les ganamos hijueputas! jjajaja.

bueno, hablando de otras cosas, estoy harta de esta mierda. ya se lo que habia dicho antes pero que no me jodan mas estos malparidos. coman mierda. ni se por que estoy aqui. ojala que me fuera al fin del verano. ya me quiero ir. en este mierdero no hay nada que valga la pena, ni los amigos aparentemente.

Cancion del dia: California- Rogue Wave

Hasta la proxima
Sary

thus far

my summer has been okay. i've only really gone out about two times and my mornings have consisted of watching the Euro Cup playoffs. Not that it's a bad thing. Soccer is my favorite sport and i love watching the teams duke it out for the final. The championship game is on Sunday with Germany vs. Spain. I want Spain to win, mostly because i HATE the germans, but also because of this little hottie:

RRRRRRRRRRRR hahaha. i'm sorry i just think he's the hottest guy ever and he helped Spain win the last two matches. oh, and we also have the same birthday, so it's pretty much in the bag- we're going to get married.

anywho, tonight will be the third time i've gone out this summer. I'm going to see Northern tonight with Chris's girlfriend Kelly. And by the way, Northern is possibly my favorite band next to Coldplay. I saw them two years ago at chain and they were unbelievable. The conert is in Pomona and up until a few minutes ago, i thought Pomona was pretty close but apparently it's about an hour away haha. So tonight should be fun! I can't wait till 4th of July though. I think i wrote about my experience last year, and it was the best 4th of July ever, and i have a feeling this year is going to top it.

Yeahhh i'm having a hard time ending this, so i'll just say bye now!

Song of the day: Strawberry Swing- Coldplay

Until next time
Sary

lately

i've been realizing that a lot of my recent posts have been filled with such negativity.

no.

complaining is a more adequate word. i've been going back and reading what i've written and being away for a while helped me read it with an objective point of view. considering the fact that i hate it when people complain, the fact that i have been doing just that makes me a hypocrite.

and so i have decided to make a conscious effort to not complain about my circumstances or my troubles. if something is bothering me, i'll find a way to fix it, and if not, forget it and move on with my life.

gaahhhh i had so much more to write but i am being summoned!

Until next time
Sary

milestone

i think this entry's title is very appropriate, considering that i just graduated from highschool and it's my 100th post. so it's a milestone in my life, and the life of my blogger haha. well to catch up, let's start with disneyland.

the buses got there about 45 minutes late and we didn't get there till almost ten. it was freaking hot that day, the new toy story ride opened, and 15 other schools decided to go that day too. so needless to say it wasn't so much fun. i mean, i tried my best to not be so pessimistic and did have some fun, but long lines and a burning sun is never a good combination at disneyland haha.

then yesterday was graduation. and there's much to say about that. well, first thing i did in the morning was bolt over to target and buy "viva la vida". i love every single song on there except one, which doesn't happen often with me and albums. it's simply amazing. then in the afternoon i drove myself to tustin high and i got there like 10 minutes early so parking was NOT a bitch haha. then i went into the gym to wait and it was sooo hot and sticky, everyone was pretty much miserable. then we walked out into the blazing sun and sat for about an hour listening to everyone's speeches and whatnot. and then they called our names and right after i started dancing in line, they called my name and i got my diploma. my favorite part? turning my tassel from right to left and throwing my cap up in the air. i had been waiting to do that since i was a little girl.

despite the excitement towards the end though, i felt (and i still do) numb towards everything in a way. maybe it was the fact that it hadn't really registered, or the fact that i was just completely over highschool. still, i regret that i didn't feel more emotion.

then grad night was last night. it was pretty fun for the most part, except towards the end when i was completely drained and just wanted to go home. we left dave & busters at 5ish and i got home at quarter to 6. once again, i didn't feel anything over the fact that this was the last time i would be with all the other seniors in years. i was completely apathetic to the fact that this was the last senior event, or the last time i would be driving out of the parking lot and stuff like that.

and even as i am writing this, i still don't believe that i graduated yesterday and that i'm out of highschool. i still feel like i have school tomorrow and it'll be the same routine as always: park in the junior lot, walk to zero, hate english, walk with courtney to econ, make fun of sads with lauren, book it over to math and dread it, have break with sam and kathryn, eagerly waiting for psych to start, having in depth life discussions with kelsey and jill, laugh my butt off with the entire class, and just hang around in video.

well, for lack of feeling, the nostalgia is certainly kicking in. i know it sounds cliche but the last 4 years, especially senior year, have gone by so fast. looking back, i wouldn't mind going back to a monotous day of school one last time. i know it sounds crazy, but that's how it is.

on another note, completely aside from school, i am so over one particular aspect of my life. i realized that i shouldn't have to settle for anything or anyone, i don't even care about this thing that has been bugging me for a long time, and i couldn't be leaving at a better time. in fact i wish i was leaving sooner.

Song of the day: Death and All his Friends- Coldplay

PEACE

spoke too soon

yesterday was a traumatizing event in my life. i didn't speak at all for about two hours because i was in such shock. i don't want to get in to what happened, because i'd rather just forget it ever occurred. but it is something that will stay in my mind forever, and in my family's as well. hopefully disneyland tomorrow will help me forget, but i can't help just getting flashes of what happened in my mind over and over again.

Until next time
Sary

100%

haha wow, reading that last post, i forgot how angry i was that day. in the end, everything got swept under the rug and i was forced to forget about it like i always do.

but today was/is going to be an awesome day. i got up at 8 today which i was pretty bummed about, but i went to school and took my last final. words can't describe how good it felt to bubble in the last answer of my highschool carreer. and when i started walking towards my car i saw my entire highschool experience in about 3 seconds, and the only thing i could think of was the words "I'm done." over and over again.

and if that wasn't good enough, one of my favorite songs of all time was playing on the radio and i listened to it all the way home. i just got this overwhelming feeling of accomplishment and felt like a huge weight had been lifted off my shoulders.

and to start off what is going to be an AWESOME summer, Jill's grad party is tonight and i'm stoked. Then Tuesday is DLAND and Wednesday is graduation! I can't believe it. Then after that i got the whole summer ahead of me. And if it's anything close to last summer, then i'll be the happiest kid in the world.

Song of the day: Your Song- Elton John

Until next time
Sary

EFFING PISSED

i am so mad/frustrated right now. i swear, i haven't been this pissed off in such a long time, like this doesn't happen very often for me.

i feel like if anyone tries to talk to me i'm going to explode right in their face. and i'm just sick and tired of my "friends' " bullshit. Seriously, get a fucking life, have some freaking dignity, and don't be so fucking inconsiderate with other people's feelings.

i can honestly say i trust no one in this fucking goddamn place.

catch a falling star

i haven't written in a week or so, due to the fact that i completely forgot.

so, the realization of graduating is finally starting to set in. next week is my last week of classes and the next few days after that are going to be TIIIIGHT.

• Senior Picnic
• Grad Party
• Disneyland
• Graduation!
• Grad Night

i laff it.

Song of the Day: The a la menthe- La Caution

Until next time
Sary