i'm so full

I just realized that it took two Thanksgivings for me to actually sit down and think about what I was thankful for. And recently there's so much to give thanks to in my life. 

Most of all, I am thankful for my family and Andrew, and that they got here safe and sound. I am thankful that we sold our house back home, especially given the circumstances of the economy. It was really a miracle that we sold that thing. I am thankful that within 3 days of my parents arriving, we found a new house at an INCREDIBLY great price, given the fact that houses were super expensive in the areas we were looking at. I am thankful for all of our health and that we are all okay. 

I am thankful that my grandma's knee has gotten better over the last few months and that my parents lived to see another anniversary tomorrow, and my grandparents will be married for 56 years next month. 

I am thankful that I have such a tight bond with all of my family members, cousins and aunts and uncles alike. It was funny, but as we were all sitting around the dinner table, everyone was talking at the top of their lungs, even though they were two feet away from each other, and I kinda just sat there and took a good look around me, and I just realized how much I loved every single person at that table. 

I am thankful that for all of my life, we have always had enough to eat, have always had clothes to wear, and we've always had enough money to live a comfortable life. Anything I've ever wanted, my parents have pretty much always been able to buy for me. Since I've been here, I've been in some pretty tough neighborhoods, and it breaks my heart to see the poverty that some people have to live in, not knowing how they're going to make it through another day. It just reminds me how lucky I've been my entire life. 

I am thankful for the friends I've made over the years (even if they are being jerks right now and not writing me). Still whatever happens down the road, even if one day we decide that we despise each other and never speak again, I wouldn't trade any of the memories I have with Casey or Chris,  or even Allie. Despite everything that has happened between us, they really were the best friends I have ever had, and I grew to love them as much as my own family. I thank them for letting me know what having and being a true friend really means.

Basically my life is perfect. I mean, I know I complain about things every day, here on my blog, and pretty much every second in the rest of my life, but all the essentials are here. I have the very building blocks of living a wonderful and perfect life right in front of me. Most of us do. It's how we arrange them and use them that determines how happy we are in life. At the end of the day, all the good in my life outweighs the bad, and even makes it look insignificant compared to all the luck I've been fortunate to receive throughout my life. 

I know this entire post sounds like some after-school Charlie Brown special, but for the first time in my life, I actually mean what I am thankful for on Thanksgiving. In the past, I basically said the same thing every year because I had to, and I didn't really take the time to realize what I had. But this year, I don't know why, I am genuinely thankful, and I thank God every night for helping me be so fortunate. 

I guess that's what happens when you grow up.....jesus.

Song of they day: Ready to Fall- Mark Hildreth

Until next time 

Sary

turkey day

So I broke the updating streak yesterday :/

Sorry, but I just needed some time to myself. I was horrified when I woke up yesterday because I knew I had to tell my mom about my stolen iPod. I thought she was going to kill me. But I told her, sobbing, and she was pissed at first, but was better about it later. She realized that it wasn't my fault. It wasn't anyone's fault really. 

We went with her to the place where it got stolen yesterday and the owner said that he had a good idea of who had taken it and was going to talk with him. If not, he said he would pay for it. Which is great, but I don't really want him to because it's not fair to make him pay for someone else's stupidity. We're supposed to go in about half an hour to see him, to see what's up.

Gosh, yesterday in the morning I was such a mess. Could not stop crying. But I felt a lot better after I told my mom and went to see the guy. Anyways, we all realized that it's just an iPod. And here, there are a lot of other worse things that could've happened to me. In a way, I'm glad that they stole it while it was in the car. Otherwise I would've gotten mugged....that's not fun!

So today marks my first Thanksgiving in Costa Rica. It's so weird. Thanksgiving is one of my favorite holidays, and one of the reasons is (apart from the fooooood) is the season and weather. Back home, right about now, it would be pretty cold, probably cloudy, but my house would be warm and filled with all my relatives, eating all my favorite foods around the dinner table with the fireplace lit.

Here, it's more like: windy, blue skies, huge clouds, perfect temperature, and well, green all around....it's just not that same Thanksgiving feeling you know? Atleast not the kind I'm used to. I don't even want to think about Christmas. The entire month of December is my favorite of the entire year. And I am literally happy everyday that month. I love the cold, and the Christmas songs, and the eggnog and gingerbread men, and the Christmas movies they play on TV, and lighting the tree, and the Christmas lights on Red Hill, I just simply love everything.....

....I have a feeling none of that will happen here haha. I don't know just the fact that I'm somewhere tropical will be enough for me not to get in the X-mas spirit. I mean, summer starts in December.....that's pretty much a BUST. 

Anyways, I'm starving and I have to leave soon so I'll probably update tomorrow morning as well. If not, then have a wonderful Thanksgiving, and have a great weekend!

Song of the day: It looks like love- Josh Rouse

Until next time

Sary

insult to injury

If I had known this morning that I would end up where I am right now......well I probably wouldn't have even left the house. 

I woke up early, went to the U, took a test, got 100%, got my student ID, payed my tuition until May, blah blah, but nevertheless, things were looking pretty good that morning.

Ugh, to not drag out and repeat a painful experience, my iPod got stolen. 

.....

I had that thing for 3 years, took care of it like no other, not a scratch on it, just so it could be stolen by some ASSHOLE at the carwash. Just to know that it's in some guys hands who probably doesn't even know how to use it, after I got so attached to that stupid thing, it makes me furious. And the worst part is, I haven't even told my mom. 

She is going to KILL ME. I have a feeling she'll be the most furious I've ever seen her. Which is why I'm not even looking forward to getting up tomorrow. 

And to add insult to serious injury, I haven't really talked to either of my best friends in about a month, and not for my lack of trying, but rather because of their apathy. Their inconsideration is just..... frustrating, and depressing. It's like my worst fears are coming true. I guess we are the friends that lose touch over time, which is unfortunate. 

If I'm exaggerating here, I really don't care. I'm in a horrible mood. I think the theme for my life today has been inconsiderate people. Inconsiderate people who STEAL my things out of my car, and inconsiderate people who don't even have the courtesy to write back. 

Song of the day: Don't Take Your Love Away From Me- Visual Audio Sensory Theater

Until next time

Sary

Prospekt's March in Smallville

So I really love this whole, updating daily thing. Makes me feel like I actually accomplished something, which is great, because I did absolutely nothing today. 

I am in SUCH a good mood right now! It's a mixture between excitement, anxiety, amorousness, incredulity, and all those things that make you smile and get little butterflies in your stomach. Unfortunately, this feeling of joy has nothing to do with a boy haha. Well, I guess, it has to do with four men haha, who are in a band called Coldplay. Maybe you've heard of them?

So today I went to the iTunes store. I've been doing this weekly ever since I moved to Costa, because the media here isn't really hip to all the popular and new music back home, so I want to keep myself as informed and updated as possible. And in the "New Releases" section, who should I see, but Coldplay?!

Immediately I thought, "Whaaaa...?" You see, I haven't been reading the newsletters I get from the band and so I really have no idea what's going on with them, other than the fact that they are playing in Anaheim....tomorrow. You have no idea how pissed off I was, but that's a whole other issue I don't want to get into. So anyways, I click on the little icon and it's an entire new EP that they've released! Which is great, because it would be a whole other 3 years before I got to hear some new Coldplay material. 

I think I said in some earlier entry when "Viva La Vida" came out that it was their best album yet. But this is seriously their best material ever. Unlike "Viva La Vida" I actually like every single song, except for two "remixes" off their last album, which are basically the same songs with some Jay-Z thrown in there. I mean, it's just incredible. These are the songs that I have always wanted them to make. 

And in another area of obsession in my life, Smallville in my opinion, is in its best season to date, and the episode last week was so amazing. It was directed in a style that had never been seen before in the series, and the cliffhanger was just....guuhhhh! Now I have to wait until January 15th to see what happens. I hate the Smallville winter hiatus.

Well, now that I've shamelessly plugged my two favorite things on my blog, I think it's my cue to exit. Entry about feminism will come up soon haha. That'll be interesting. 

Album of the day: Prospekt's March- Coldplay

Until next time

Sary

aha!

i'm in a rather good mood tonight and i don't want to go to bed on a serious note, so i'll write my entry about feminism for another time haha. for a little levity, here's a survey. enjoy :)

Random
Do you have any pets?	Yes, a dog named Andrew
What color shirt are you wearing?	White
Name three things that are physically close to you:	The pillow, the laptop case, and my sleeping great aunt on the floor hahaha
What is the last book you read?	A book about Angels
Are you or were you a good student?	I was a very good student
What's your favorite sport?	Futbol!
Do you enjoy sleeping late?	yesss
What's the weather like right now?	Calm, still, cloudless night
Who tells the best jokes?	Natalia
What was the last thing you dreamed about?	Kelso!
Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed?	Yes. No, some jackass crashed into me
Do you believe in karma?	Yes
Do you believe in luck?	Yes
Do you like your eggs scrambled or sunny side up?	Both. Depends on what mood I'm in
Do you collect anything? If so, what?	Um, Superman and Smallville memorabilia
Are you proud of yourself?	To a certain extent
Are you reliable?	Yes
Have you ever given money to a bum?	Yes
What's your favorite food?	Anything Italian
Have you ever had a secret admirer?	Um Yes
Do you like the smell of gasoline?	Yes!
Do like to draw?	Yeah, I'm not very good though :/
What's your favorite invention?	Photo Booth? Or the iPod maybe.
Is your room messy?	Nope. I like it clean.
What do you like better: oranges or apples?	Oranges
Do you give in easily?	Um, yes.
Are you a good guesser?	Yes! I swear I'm psychic.
Can you read other people's expressions?	Very well, most of the time.
Are you a bully?	No!
Do you have a job?	Haha not as of yet.
What time did you wake up this morning?	8:42
What did you eat for breakfast this morning?	Gallopinto with sour cream and a roll of bread
When was the last time you showered?	Today
What do you plan on doing tomorrow?	Going to Rosie's maybe?
What's your favorite day of the week and why?	Friday, because it's the end of the week and I finally feel like I can breathe
Do you have any nicknames?	Sary, Sarines, Sar, Toad, Nelli, Baby Toad, Baby Nelli, the list goes on
Have you ever been scuba diving?	No, I wish, but I don't think I'd have the guts with my fear of the ocean.
What's your least favorite color?	Pink
Is there someone you have been constantly thinking about? If yes, who?	Um there WAS. Not anymore. Oh, and Casey and Chris :/
Would you ever go skydiving?	Yes
What toothpaste do you use?	Colgate
Do you enjoy challenges?	I guess
What's the worst injury you have had?	Um, I scraped my knee in 2nd grade like a MOTHER
What's the last movie you saw?	Does Naruto count? My cousins are geeks.
What do you want to know about the future?	If I'm ever going to make movies or get married
What does your last text message say?	Some message from ICE
Who was the last person you spoke over the phone to?	Mom
What's your favorite school subject?	Psych or history
What's your least favorite school subject?	Mathhhh
Would you rather have money or love?	Love, duh.
What is your dream vacation?	Prague or Provence
What is your favorite animal?	Penguin, Elephant, Dolphin
Do you miss anyone right now?	Enormously
What's the last sporting event you watched?	Costa Rica vs. El Salvador. We won thank you very much!
Do you need to do laundry?	Um, not this week.
Do you listen to the radio?	Not really since I've been here
Where were you when 9/11 happened?	Waking up. It was all over once I got to school.
What do you do when vending machines steal your money?	Curse, in my head.
Have you ever caught a butterfly?	Yes! Butterfly farms are nifty for that
What color are your bed sheets?	White with stripes of all colors of the rainbow
What's your ringtone?	Sweeeeeeeeeet Emooooooooooootion
Who was the last person to make you laugh?	Tia Ginette
Do you have any obsessions right now?	Smallville, what's new.
Do you like things that glow in the dark?	Yes
What's your favorite fruity scent?	Mango?
Do you watch cartoons?	Mmm, only Superman, when it's on.
Have you ever sat on a roof?	NO!
Have you ever been to a different country?	Haha, I think so.
Name three things in the world you dislike:	Global Warming, Murderers, The Yankees
Name three people in the world you dislike:	Aw. Well. Okay, Fidel Castro, Hugo Chavez, Osama Bin Laden
Has a rumor even been spread about you?	Um, maybe. I don't remember
Do you like sushi?	NO. EFF SUSHI
Do you believe in magic?	Sure
Do you hold grudges?	Ugh, I try not to, but more times than not I do.
Take this survey or other MySpace Surveys at PimpSurveys.com

God, my arms hurt from playing Wii all day. Believe it or not, it took me an hour and a half to post this stupid entry. Technical difficulties. Anyways, I think I'll go work on my faux-trailer for a little bit. I promise when I finish it I'll post it up. It's gonna be SIIIICK.

Song of the day: From Where You Are- Lifehouse

Until next time

Sary

growing up

Sorry about my useless rants lately; I want to get back into these philosophical discussions ( well, they're not really discussions because no one else discusses them with me haha) but seriously, I want to get back into these important ideas and sharing my thoughts.

So a few minutes ago I got into a fight with my mom. Well, it wasn't really a fight, it kinda went like this:

I was brushing my hair, and she said, " Aren't you going to straighten it for tomorrow?" And I said, "No I'm going to wash it tomorrow." And she said, "Why do you wash your hair so much?" Now mind you, we've had this discussion many times before. She's told me a million times that I wash my hair too much when I reassure her that I don't. So you can imagine my frustration when I semi-yelled, " I only wash it every two days!" in a rather annoyed tone.....why did I even bother?

She, of course, threw a shit-fit and in her rant said something along the lines of " You're so disrespectful, what's the matter with you, you've gotten out of control since you came here...."

Out of control. Give me a break. So now, the fact that I told her that I wash my hair every two days in an annoyed voice means that I'm out of control. I'd hate to think what going out every night, getting drunk and doing drugs would be categorized as. 

The truth is (and I feel horrible about this) a part of me really wanted my parents to come, because I hadn't seen them in two months. But another even bigger part of me, didn't want them to come. I had been perfectly happy for the last two months, with no one telling me what to do, no one yelling at me, no one over my shoulder watching my every move. And I knew for a fact that when they got here, everything would start all over again just like it was back home. 

I've always said that 18 isn't a really big age for me. I mean sure you're an adult in the eyes of the law, but I know a bunch of people who are 18 and are so immature, they don't even deserve the word. 18 is just a number. But I've come to realize that that's the card I'm going to have to play. When this whole thing blows up and my parents and I have a confrontation, I'm going to have to tell them that I'm 18, I can do what I want, and they can't tell me what to do anymore. And that's something that I never wanted to do, and never saw myself doing. Every single day for the last two weeks, it's been: "Make your bed, don't eat that, go to bed, blah blah blah blah blah!!!" 

I am not a baby. And in case you haven't noticed I've been fine for the past two months without you here. And I know that there's no way I can say that without sounding completely stuck up or childish. Ironic, isn't it. I just want to be left alone. 

So my question for today is, at what age are our parents not allowed to tell us what to do anymore? Well a certain part of me knows that we can be 50 years old and our parents will tell us what to do, and we have to follow orders to a certain extent. But how long, what does it take for our parents to realize that we can take care of ourselves, and we can make decisions on our own?

If you know or have any advice, pleeease let me know haha. 

Song of the day: 11/22- Buddy

Until next time

Sary

Dorothy!

There's a twister outside, I swear. These are worse than the Santa Ana's. But it's actually cold wind, so I guess that's the only good part :/

I've been having trouble sleeping lately and I am SO not sleepy so I thought I'd update. I love you blogger, I really do.

I guess the only thing I can really write about tonight is how much I miss home. Yes, I know we've all heard many times, but it's true. I don't remember if I said this here, but I told someone, I forget who. Anyways, the thing is that when I left home, I thought the move would get easier over time. Like, I would be completely depressed at first, but after a few months or weeks, it would get better. Well, it's turned out to be the complete opposite. My nostalgia and desire to move back has increased drastically lately. I miss everything.

I miss the street lights.

I miss Newport Blvd.

I miss driving in a place where people actually follow the rules of the road. 

I miss Jamba Juice.

I miss Starbucks!

I miss everything being 20 minutes away or less.

I miss the radio.

I miss PCH.

I miss the Disneyland fireworks.

I miss my house :(

I miss my friends.

Most of all, I miss Casey and Chris.

Being away from them has been the worst. I miss their faces and their laughs, and joking about the most RANDOM, IDIOTIC stuff. Haha, I miss flopping around on Casey's couch and watching movies, not wanting to get up. I miss Chris's funny parents and George Lopez inside jokes. I miss the secrets, I even miss the fights and the times where they did something so retarded that I would go on a cursing rampage while rolling my eyes :/

God, I'm so pathetic. I wish this entry wasn't so lame, and I know most of my posts lately have been depressing, but it's how I'm feeling. You try moving to a different country where you don't know anyone. 

I guess the only thing left to do is wait it out. I'll start school in two months and meet a whole bunch of new people, make new friends, even maybe (knock on wood) find a significant other finally, and hopefully I can go and visit next Christmas and Chris and Casey can come visit me sooner than that. 

I was just thinking about what picture I should put up (because I've been adding pictures to all my entries recently) and I realized that I don't even have a picture of the three of us. We should've taken one the last night we were all together....

... well, that's the first thing I'm going to do when we're all together again. 

Goodnight.

Song of the day: Eyes- Rogue Wave

Until next time

Sary

thankful

there's an earthquake at this very moment fuckkkkkkkkkkkkk!!!!!!!holy shit a;sdlkf

*****

oh my god hahah what are the odds? well that's what happens to me when there's an earthquake hahaha. whew. that was a long one. like 30 seconds! well anyways. that totally got me out of the mood i was in haha. anyways, i'm sorry i haven't updated AGAIN, but I'll try to be the least verbose that i can. basically

we bought a new house in costa! and it's in a totally nice neighborhood with no potholes and the streets actually have names! hahah. basically i have so much to be thankful for lately. my parents and andrew got here safely (bearing gifts) and we found a house for an incredible price within 3 days of getting here. seems like this move is turning out for the better and everything is going according to plan. luck is definitely on our side. 

anyways, i'm going to TRY and get some sleep and hope there's not another earthquake :/  

Song of the day: Love is a Losing Game- Amy Winehouse

Until next time

Sary

Remember, Remember

Wow. 

Tuesday night was amazing. Words cannot describe. There I was watching Wolf on CNN, Obama was leading by A LOT, but I still didn't want to jinx it. McCain still had the slightest chance of winning. But I still felt really hopeful. Then it was the top of the hour, they started a new session, and Wolf said, " It is official, Barack Obama has just been elected the new president of the United States." Or something like that. 

And immediately I thought, "He did it." We did it. Seeing his picture up there on the screen and thinking that was the next president of the United States, the first African- American president, I really couldn't believe it. And his speech at Grant Park was just incredible. 

He could've really excited the crowd, and reiterated the fact that we had won and made a really big show of it all, but instead he said " We've got a steep climb ahead of us. And it will not be easy" quoting one of my heroes, Dr. Martin Luther King.

Sitting on my bed, with my eyes glued to the television, I had this overwhelming feeling that I was watching history unfold. And yes, I know we've heard it all a million times. But we will also all remember where we were when we first found out he won, when we saw him speak at Grant Park. I've always thought that the best years in American history were the '60's. Yes, despite the Vietnam war and some crazy fashion statements, the '60's was a time of revolution, where people actually cared about this country and this world and weren't afraid to stand up to what they believed in. It was a time of the administration of John F. Kennedy, a time of the civil rights movement, a time of Martin Luther King. And since then, I've felt that America has not had an era of equal importance. Lately, the only thing anyone cares about is who won Dancing with the stars. And I felt ashamed that we as a country didn't fight for anything anymore, especially the things we believed in, because let's face it, we didn't believe in anything. And with the economy in such a bad state, fighting two wars overseas, and millions of people losing their homes, things were looking pretty grim. 

And then a senator from Illinois decided to run for president. Barack Obama winning the presidential election was way more than "the first black president" for me. Yes, the fact that he will be the new president vindicates his ancestors and the millions of countless faces of African-Americans who have been segregated and discriminated for thousands of years. But to me, his winning the election gives people the hope that they have been so desperately searching for in the last few years. Finally! Someone who inspires people, who renews their faith in mankind, who unites people across the country!

I admire him so much for being so courageous in running precisely at this moment, when his tasks as a president will require more from him than any man before him. The obstacles that he has to overcome, that we must overcome, are greater than anything a first-term president has ever had to deal with. He knows the burden he has to carry for all of us, the pressures of being president at this time, the danger of being him right now, and I thank him for his courage and bravery. 

He is not the change that everyone has been talking about, I don't think so anyway. I think he is the first stepping stone, the catalyst to that change we all desperately need and want to "form a more perfect union." He is just the first line of the first chapter of better times ahead. 

The reason why I'm writing so much about him right now is because I simply feel inspired, as I have been recently haha. But he just takes it to a different level. I not only feel inspired for myself, but I feel inspired for the rest of the country, and in turn the rest of the world. 

Again, sitting on my bed watching him speak at Grant Park, I knew that this was a defining moment in our history. I couldn't help but cry, listening to his words, watching everyone come together to witness him as well, and the emotion that he evoked in everyone. It was just a magical moment. I cannot wait to see what the future will bring for us, and for him.

Song of the day: Those Sweet Words- Norah Jones

Until next time

Sary