the jerkoffs

I can't believe I was so judgmental about this movie before I watched it! I got to see it courtesy of our new video store we subscribed to. AMAZING soundtrack, but I guess that was pretty much a given :)

More in depth posts that require serious thinking next time.

Song of the day: Last Words- The Real Tuesday Weld

Until next time

Sary

life through a lens

usually any kind of realization or revelation I've had in my life has been a slow process. I've never really had an "a-ha!" moment in terms of my life. But today it happened. It was amazing. Without trying to sound cheesy or predictable, I just saw my life before me perfectly and clearly. It was just this unexpected moment of clarity and it was amazing because I had never felt it before. It was during my marketing class this afternoon.

So I'm sitting there, taking down notes, and I start to daydream like I usually do in class. The professor reminds us that there is a test next week and any hope I had for a relaxing weekend is crushed. Suddenly I'm reminded of how much I hate school, not just in general, but how much I hate studying what I'm studying. It is the most uncreative, uninspiring thing I could ever study and there is just no room for insight or expanding your mind or creativity or anything. I feel like an idiot for not telling my parents straight up from the beginning that I wasn't going to go to university here if it wasn't for film.

And then it hit me: I don't have to study. Jesus, I'm an adult now, no one can force me to do anything I don't want to. Going to school for a major I could care less about falls under that category. I realize as much as my parents will hate this idea, I can now say with conviction and confidence that it is MY life. And I'll choose what I want to do with it from now on. As soon as I made this discovery, I started deviating a hypothetical plan in my mind, and I saw the next five years of my life just play out. I'll quit next semester, start working and start saving up money for the next two years at least to go back to California and study what I've always been passionate about: film. I'll get a job back home and earn my way through film school and finally live life the way I want it to. What it all comes down to is this: film is my life. I can't imagine doing anything else except that for the rest of my life. I'm not going to waste two years of my life going to school for something that I  

a) hate

b) will probably never pursue a career in

If filmmaking doesn't work out, I'll still make my living through some kind of art form; business administration is definitely not a part of that. And I won't settle for anything else. I know this was originally supposed to be a back up plan, but I'm going ahead with this without any sort of plan B. It's either film or nothing else. And for the first time I'm excited to actually pursue something that I'm passionate about with everything I have, with everything I can offer. It's certainly a rush to know that the chances of making it are slim and I have nothing to fall back on.... I'm doing it. 

As much as I feel empowered right now, I'm scared to death as to what my parents will say. It will be a huge altercation I can tell you that right now, but I have to do it. It's the first step in following my dreams. I never thought I'd be nor wanted to be a college dropout, but if there's one thing I've learned recently is that nothing ever happens exactly the way you want it to. I'm living proof of that just sitting here right now. 

Go download this right now.

Song of the day: Love is the end- Keane

Until next time

Sary

a new love interest?

I had the most amazing dream the morning of Valentine's Day. You know it's one of those dreams where you wake up completely happy? Usually these kinds of dreams involve a love interest, for me anyway haha. 

So with all these hot guys at school it was bound to happen sooner or later that I would fall for one, and I have. It's going on 5 years now that I don't have a significant other and I'm tired of it. This one has to work. I've only just met him but I think there's definitely a chance. Just the fact that I'm interested in someone else is great because I haven't liked anyone in about two years, at least not realistically. I'm gonna go take a shower and study for my first college test tomorrow! Wish me luck (on both counts)! I hope you had an amazing weekend.

Song of the day: Anyone else but you- The Moldy Peaches

Until next time

Sary

Cs3

hahahah shut up! i know it's corny but i think i'm getting pretty good at these! Photoshop was sooo hard for me in the beginning but once you get the terminology and the hang of it, it's so easy! I cranked these out in like an hour and a half which is pretty good. 

I think today was the best day I had at school, socially. Academically? Not so much.

Song of the day: Lovers in Japan- Coldplay

Until next time

Sary

Ole, ole, ole, oleeee

I'm watching the soccer game right now, Costa vs. Honduras. I wish I was there! Soccer here is like hockey in Canada (I know you're happy I said that, Simon haha). It's huuuuuge. When I got to school today everyone was like, are you going to the game tonight? And a few hours ago one of our friends called to ask if we wanted to go over and watch the game at his house. I love our enthusiasm for the sport :)

Anyways I thought I'd update you. Let's get specific: I had a pretty good day at school today. I'm making a lot of new friends and getting more and more comfortable with meeting new people. I got out about an hour early and my mom wasn't home so the taxi driver (who was been driving me while our car is in the impound) took me to the restaurant where she was. It's about 15 minutes away from the house. OKAY. So the place is called Lomas del Zurqui and it's a gated residence with a H-U-G-E clubhouse and restaurant. I mean we're talking, 3 swimming pools, tennis courts, squash court (how cool is that?) 2 big salons, 4 bars, pool tables, 2 gyms, etc., etc. And the drive up there was just.... I mean it felt like I was in Jurassic Park. The fact that it was a beautiful day helped a lot too, but there was just so much greeeeen everywhere and mountains and ugh. It was just amazing. And the houses? Dude, we're talking mansions here. I felt like I was in Cowan Heights- CR version haha. All the beauty I saw just made my day :)

Let's get general: I have a lot of acquaintances now at school, but I have two close friends who I talk to the most- Paola and Alejandra. They're both really cool, Alejandra is hysterical and she has a lot of really cool/funny friends. I got invited to her birthday party last weekend! But I couldn't go. Haha apparently I missed it because there were a lot of hot guys :/ haha anyway we'll probably celebrate later. I like all of my classes except written communication and administration. Written communication is like English AP but in spanish. That's the best way I can describe it. So if you're reading this, and you had Kasper last year, then you'll know what I'm talking about. And administration is sooo freaking boring! The professor is like Mrs. Pauldine but without a sense of humor haha. And he literally, I'm not kidding takes like 45 seconds to write a sentence. Like the other day he was writing "The fundamentals of administration" and it almost took him one minute haha. Like, how long does it take to write that seriously. Anyways, I start at quarted to 11 everyday but on Thursdays (tomorrow) I start at 7. UGH. So i have to get up at 5. Reminds me of getting up every morning for zero period haha. Those were some dark times. 

On another note, I've been getting into photoshop A LOT lately haha. Kudos to Casey for installing it for me before I left. Mostly I'm using it to make small banners and stuff. I'll let you guess what they're about haha. And apart from that I've just been working my butt off and looking forward to when I have some vacation time. And looking forward to July for when Chris (hopefully) comes!

Haha wow, sorry I got so chatty. I started and I was like "Okay I really don't want to write that much" and look how much I got done! But I miss my older entries that were full of depth and questioning. Definitely gonna start that up again. If you haven't already, check out the "inspiration" links on the right hand side to see where I get my.....inspiration from haha. Those are the kinds of topics I want to discuss on here. Anyways, the first half is over and I really want to photoshopit some more before I have to go to sleep. Goodnight, who/wherever you are!

Song of the day: Storybook Ending- Huntingfield

Until next time

Sary

Last. Clana Scene. EVER.

If you don't get SOMEWHAT emotional over this, you have no soul. 

It's finally over after 8 years. We've always known since day one that they couldn't end up together. We just didn't know how it would happen, what they would say, what the circumstances were going to be. After 8 years of waiting and imagining this scene in my head over and over again, I can honestly say that it's perfect. 

I think the reason why I'm so attached to Smallville (and these two) is because I've grown up with them over the years. If you look at Season 1 and compare it now to Season 8, it's like two completely different shows. I'd like to think it's the same with me. I'm completely different than I was when I was 11 haha. 

All in all, I've been on this journey with them over the past 8 years and now it's finally time to say goodbye. They have been the source of some serious entertainment, sadness, and "What the Fuck?!" moments in my life. This scene is a culmination of the last 8 years, and it all comes down to the fact that they love each other so much that they would sacrifice their happiness for the rest of the world. Words can't really describe how I'm feeling right now.....just watch.

Song of the day: Goodnight, Travel Well- The Killers

Until next time 

Sary

shaft

(lolling at that picture)

So I was walking to my administration class yesterday. The taxi left me towards the back of the school and my class was all the way up to the front, so I casually made my way across campus, in my cool shades the Chris gave me on the 4th of July, looking oh-so-cool. I turned into the hallway and made my way to the end where there were a few people waiting outside the door because the previous class hadn't been let out yet. 

There was a girl there who I knew and as soon as I saw her I gave her a big smile and said "Hey!" She said "hey" back and we both kinda stood against the wall for a few awkward moments. After a while she finally said, "You know, you look a lot better when you smile" to which I said, "OH.....thanks!" This kinda caught me off-guard. She continued by saying, "Yeah it's just that sometimes when you're walking or whatever you look really mad like you want to punch someone..." And I said, "ME?!" to which afterwards I laughed and said, "No, not at all! I'm not like that at all." She continued with, "And the fact that you don't talk much kinda adds to that image." Then I said, "No, it's just that I'm shy at first and like to take in my surroundings and stuff. Once you get to know me then you can't shut me up."

HAHA. The reason why I find this so funny/interesting is because I always consider myself such a jovial and happy person for the most part! I mean, at least when it comes to relationships with other people. But apparently I look like I want to kick your ass and I don't even realize it! What a conundrum! Does this mean that I have looked like this my entire life and it isn't until now that it is being brought to my attention? I hate the idea of people thinking that about me. 

But why do I look like that in the first place? I mean I'm not gonna walk around with a huge smile on my face the entire day. When you're walking alone, your face is neutral isn't it? But apparently my "neutral" face is really mean hahaha. What does this say about ME?! Or maybe I'm just over-analyzing things like I always do. What do you think?

Song of the day: Got to Give it Up- Marvin Gaye (go listen right now!)

Until next time

Sary

Christian Bale

you suck. 

listen.

if you haven't already.

Song of the day: Possibilities- Nadia Fay

Until next time

Sary

Coffee Break

sorry for the lack of updates, AGAIN. School has been taking up so much of my time. I know I've been saying that a lot but it's true. 

On a brighter side though, I have been making a lot of new friends at school. I make a few each day haha. Not to mention some very cute guy friends. hahah. There's so many hot guys at school I really don't know what to do with myself. I already got invited to a birthday party this weekend! So stoked. 

Anyways, I had an awesome weekend at my aunt's house up in the mountains. I hadn't been up there in like a month. But it was so nice and relaxing to get away from the stress of school and the stress of being in my house. I'm pretty content in my life right now, now that the house is 

almost finished and I'm settling in at school. But I was talking to my cousins about this the other day, and it still doesn't feel like home. Even my room. It doesn't feel like my room, it feels like a very nicely decorated room that belongs to someone else. And I still don't feel like I'm at home in Costa. I think a part of me is still waiting to get back on a plane to California. I guess I subconsciously wait for that because that's what I did when I used to visit here. But like always, I just take it one day at a time.

In other news, am I the only one who thinks that Katy Perry is Emily Blunt's long-lost twin?

Song of the day: Don't Take Your Love Away from Me- V.A.S.T.

Until next time

Sary