New Year's Eve Prayer

you, my love, are allowed to forget about the christmas you just spent stressed out in your parents' house
you, my love are allowed to shed the weight of all the years before like bad disco clothes, save them for a night of dancing stoned with your lover
you, my love are allowed to let yourself drown every night in bottomless, wild, and naked symbolic dreams
you, my love, in sleep can unlock your youth and your most terrifying magic, and dreams for the courageous
you, my love, are allowed to grab my guitar and sing me idiot love songs if you've lost your ability to speak....keep it down to two minutes
you, my love, are allowed to rot, and to die, and to live again, more alive and incadescently than before
you, my love, are allowed to beat the shit out of your television, choke its thoughts and corrupt its mind, kill, kill, kill, KILL the motherfucker before the song of zombified pain and panic and malaise and its narrow right winged vision and its cheap commercial gang rape becomes the white noise of the world, turnabout is fairplay
you, my love, are allowed to forgive and love your television
you, my love, are allowed to speak in kisses to those around you and those up in heaven
you, my love, are allowed to show your babies how to dance, full bodied, starry eyed, audacious, supernatural and glorified
you, my love, are allowed to suck in every single endeavor
you, my love, are allowed to be soaked, like a lover's blanket in the New York summertime with the wonder of your own special gift
you, my love, are allowed to receive praise
you, my love, are allowed to have time
you, my love, are allowed to understand
you, my love, are allowed to love
women disobey when little men believe
you, my love, are rebellion

-JB

06 was a good year. I'm not making a New Year's resolution because I never seem to keep them. So starting tomorrow, I plan to live without any hopes, expectations, or goals set in mind, and rather, live each day as it comes. I think that is the secret to success. Here's to a great past year, and a kick-ass 07.

Until next year,

Sary

question

why are people so unbelievably retarded?
and why did our big bear trip just get delayed a day?

you tell me.

best xmas in a long time

just can't stop looking at it.


MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE

Until next time
Sary

umm pretty much..... the best day ever

so you see those three kids up there? i love them more than anything in the world. gosh, today was seriously on my top 3 best days of my life. i loved all my gifts, especially some cool little tickets for a concert. i really feel like a long, descriptive entry tonight so here goes:

my ipod woke me up at 6, but i ignored it and went back to sleep. by the time i woke up again, it had played 60 something songs? haha. so i got my butt out of bed and prepared myself for the long day ahead of me.

i took a shower, got out, at which point i started talking to miss peairs who told me she was picking me up in 15 minutes for some last minute shopping! so i threw on a shirt, put my hair in a bun, got the presents ready and left. our ride to the mall was pretty interesting, as they always are. allie and i always find a way to laugh hysterically about something. or nothing at all actually.

anyways, we got to mainplace which was PACKED. i got a cd for her parents and she got some candy for her aunt, uncle, and cousin. i got some bertie botts beans from the candy place....omg... some of them tasted really good, but i was a dumbass and tried the gross ones. like booger...JESUS. it was disgusting. but the one that really got to me was earwax. i seriously felt like throwing up....guuuhh....

i still had to get casey another present so we rushed to tower but they were freaking closed! on our way back to allie's we ran into casey's mom on the road. that was funny.....haha. when we got to allie's house, she wrapped presents like no other and we left for chris's.

i was so excited when we got there, i could barely contain myself. i'll tell you what each person got me:
allie- superman dvd's
casey-DLD tickets and some comfy shoe thingy's
chris- guitar strap!
lauren- pj's

and i got:
allie- a wallet, socks, and a shirt
casey- a cardi......which she already had.......(on, i might add)
chris-a shirt and snow cap
lauren- pj's and socks

and then, there was the whole coincidence thing with casey. haha so not only did we both go to target last night, but the socks that she got for allie, i got them for myself in blue. and then IIII got allie those same socks in pink. and i almost got casey this really cool shirt, but i could've sworn that i had seen it on her before, so i got her the cardi instead and it kinda backfired cause she already had it in gray..... wow. we know each other too well case....too well.

oh, and i also got sex, violence, and chaos a framed picture of us. seriously....best pic of all time. hands down.

so time flies when you're having fun. before i knew it, lauren and allie were off to the lights and it was just me, casey, and chris. we took casey to starbucks and peets to get presents for her mom and then we dropped her off. me and chris spent the whole day together after that.

we hit up james who was at jill's so we drove there and hung out for a while, watched the office, you know. we were all starving so me, chris, james, bobby, and i went to in&out. i was so full after. we were all kinda bored there so we went to best buy to see if they had guitar hero but no luck. instead we played tony hawk on xbox 360 for a while. we tried circuit city too but they didn't have guitar hero either. we all played PS3 for the first time there....HOLY CRAP. haha it's funny how easily someone can be brainwashed. like.... I WANT IT NOOWWW. the graphics are so much better than xbox. it look so real!!

anywho, we went back to jill's and i kicked everyone's butt at pool hehe. jill had a dance party in the game room with her flashlight it was pretty awesome. oh, and we watched the sound of music haha sweeet. then hannah came over, we hung for awhile then me and chris had to go. and so now here i am, freezing my butt off yet again.

honestly, words cannot express how much fun i had today, and how much i love all my friends. heck i love everyone!! the guy who's in the car that just drove by my house? i love him too. haha. it's so great to be genuinely happy. i really hope that someone can be as lucky to have friends even half as cool as mine.

i love you guys with all my heart.

Song of the day: Warning Sign- Coldplay

p.s. I GOT MY PERMIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Until next time,
Sary

BREAK BREAK BREAK!!!

HAHA i love that.

goddd it's finally here!!! i am sooo excited. these next few weeks are gonna be guh-rate. haha. here's what im doing:

• getting my permit!
  
• christmas shopping for the three amigos


• exchanging gifts


• eating tamales


• XMAAASSS!!!!


• BIG FREAKING BEAR!!


• shooting Garden State scenes


• New Years!!


• film festival
  

gosh this is going to be the best christmas break ever. Im going in a few hours to get the friends the first part of their gifts. i think they'll like them. and yes, they're all the same. .....WO....a draft just came into my room and it's only like in one spot.... IT'S A GHOST!! haha of christmas past!! wow that was weird.

anyways christmas eve is gonna be awesome. i'll be eating tamales and chris, casey, and allie are coming over for some. this is the one night of the year i get to eat them. then no more till next christmas haha. they'd better be good. So i am COMPLETELY stressing out about christmas shopping. i have no idea what i'm getting my friends. i've been looking online and i have SOOMMEEEWHHATT an idea of what to get them.

so is it just me or has it been like, 635 degrees below zero lately? It's so damn cold!!! gosh i really need some winter clothes. i have a feeling i won't be getting the guitar till after christmas...=( i'm sad. and mad at the same time. My parents haven't even looked at the one i want yet. and they keep stalling and ignoring me JUST LIKE THEY DID WITH MY PERMIT. i really hate that. it's like on my top list of things i hate.

but anyways.....i'm excited needless to say. and even more excited to film my garden state scenes. they're gonna kick B-U-T-T. if you're reading this, whoever you are, wish me luck on my permit test tomorrow haha.

Song of the day: Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas- Coldplay

Until next time
Sary

me voy a morir

I realized that yesterday and today, if i'm feeling happy about something, that quickly goes away. Because then i remember about my video feature and how im no where close to being done. Which means i'm getting an F tomorrow and my grades going down. Jesus, video really is my most stressful class.

anywho, i have yet to go christmas shopping. i have no idea what i'm getting my friends. i wanna get all of them something reallllyyyy cooool. i hope i do. i've decided to try and write in my blogger everyday. Like, just set aside 10 or 15 minutes so i can keep this thing consistent.

not much else is new. oh! except i decorated the christmas tree last night! we finally got a live one after four years of having a stupid artificial tree. can't wait to see the presents pile up soon. i have to leave in a few minutes to go film at school. i might look forward to it a little more if a certain someone wasn't going whom i just HAPPEN to loathe.

Song of the day: Redemption Song- Johnny Cash

GOSH AND CASEY IS SO FRUSTRATING RIGHT NOW!!! MY PRESENT HAD BETTER BE GOOD YOU LITTLE TOAD =D

Until next time
Sary

Excusez-moi

Gosh, i've been neglecting my blogger. I swore i wouldn't do that when i first started but alas, it has happened. Part of it is too much school work/ laziness. I'm sorry. I say that as if anyone actually reads my blogger. hahah. anyways, i'll fill you in on what's happened.

Last night, i saw here and now. WOW. hhaha that's all i can say. i walked out of the theater and i felt...weird.... haha. I felt like i did drugs, and i had a son who sold them, and i was a teacher, and i was a suicidal outcast, and a superior intellectual hispanic ( which let's face it i am) and a whole bunch of other stuff. Casey was great. I was so proud of her!!! She did an awesome job. I think michael was by far the best actor in the whole play. He and Jackie. Yeah. But, Michael was amazing. Definitely oscar worthy. haha.

So what else.... apart from the fact that school has been....devouring my soul, everything else is pretty good. Oh christmas.....christmas, christmas, christmas....IT'S HERE!!! i love this time of year. This is seriously when i am the happiest in life. I just realized that for the most part i am genuinely happy in my life right now. And i don't feel that way very often. I don't know, I can't explain it. I just feel happy. I think seeing the play last night has a big part to do with that.

Anywho, the chaos of christmas and winter shopping has arrived. Time to go buy winter clothes and christmas presents for everyone!!!! aaah! This is gonna be interesting. God i'm freaking cold right now. So yeah, i think that's it for today. Now, I must go spoon with my dog.

Song of the day: All flowers in time- Jeff Buckley and Elizabeth Fraser

Until next time
Sary