i know

the last time i wrote was last year.

but forget it. forget last year, forget previous entries, forget previous thoughts, forget plans, forget everything. i won't even acknowledge what i wrote all those months ago because i honestly feel like a new person. i don't know why, i don't know how, but i have a whole new appreciation for life, for my home, and my memories.

maybe it was the fact that everything i had planned since i was 12 years old, everything i swore would come to pass....will not. i mean maybe it will someday, but this huge decision will definitely push all my plans back a few years. for the first time, i'm deciding not to be so sensible and anal. i'm saying "to hell with life" and letting things unfold by themselves.

this is going to be a whole new adventure for me, and i have no idea what to expect. i'm reluctant, i'm sad, but at the same time i am so excited for the things that wait for me. and who knows? maybe i'll find what i'm looking for. maybe the last six years of planning were a complete waste, and the things that make me happy were under my nose all along.

because of all this, i decided that i won't waste a single minute of the time i have left. in the next 8 months, i'll do everything i have never done, and the things i have done, i'll do them one last time. i'll soak in everything california has to offer. but the more i think about it, the more i know that i'll miss this place like crazy.

if you haven't figured it out already, i'm moving to Costa Rica in December.

Song of the day (oh how i missed you): The Great Salt Lake- Band of Horses

Until next time
Sary